My density

When i was young
i never cried
i used to sit and dream
dream that someone would hear me
hear my screams
i did all i could to hide my pain
hiding my pain made me hide my personality my soul myself
now after 10 years
if i feel pain
i cry
i get panicked
i start to suffocate
i scream
the pasts tears come rolling down my cheeks
i still ask myself why?
i answer
i wont let him hurt me
but i feel dumb and brainless
because i feel the pain
and i always get hurt
but damn he ain't the one causing pain its me and my own people
why do the people i love hurt me the most?
stay away from me
thats the best you can give me