Scared and alone at night I sleep,
Little noises, sounds galore
I just lay, stare at my floor
Until I’ll finally fall asleep
When I do I wish someone there
To hold me close and keep me warm
Save me from my homemade storm
Someone that might actually care
So when I’m alone I envision
Men, boys, of whom I trust
Maybe some for which I lust
Until sleep becomes my transition
In dreams I see only those in my thoughts
And my real wishes come true
I come through
But awake to what’s real, forgetting what’s not
My stomach aching, my fears awaking
Afraid to look when something draws near
It’s something to kill or hurt me I fear
But I look, see nothing, though I’m still quaking
Again I hear it but to myself I think
I’m just a bit scared
There’s no body there
And my heart still sinks
This is my condition, my ache for a life
I hate so much
I’m in this clutch
Even though I try, to cry, I just have too much strife …
