Sweetly numb

I had this friend
Who was very close to me
He was such a great guy
The best he could be

He was in a car
And it crashed into a pole
He died almost instantly
And now god has his soul

I couldnt come to grips with what happened
I didnt want to believe it
But then it hit me
This is real s***

I went into a spiral of depression
And now I cant leave
Its been two months now
But still I grieve

I went in my room
And locked the door
I cut myself a little
And then a little more

I got deeper and deeper
I was numb to the pain
Blood spluttered on the walls
As I cut through my veins

Im starting to feel weak now
And Im so happy and sad at the same time
I cant wait to be with Harley
But my familys on my mind

I love them so
And I dont want to hurt anyone
But its too late now
Whats done is done

Im almost gone now
I can barely move my thumb
Im starting to feel dizzy
Yet so sweetly numb.