Hurt AND Confused

Repeating over and over again,
"Everything is going to be okay",
I try to rock myself to sleep,
But it isnt doing anything for me,

I can no longer think,
My minds clouded up with pain,
These tears have blurred my vision,
i can no longer see through with all this hate,

If only you would call me,
I'd like to hear an apology,
But i very well know,
I will never hear from your mouth those two words,

What did i even do to deserve this?
All i ever wanted was to love you,
I wanted to ease the pain,
That was left from your last relationship,

I wanted to be the one to hold you tight,
& make all your fears go away,
I made it my goal to find ways,
To make you happy everyday,

Just to see you smile,
Was enough for me,
So please tell me again,
What i did to deserve those hurtful words you said?

How did I hurt you?
I honestly don't have a clue,
Don't leave me hanging with the doubt,
i can no longer take the torment of being confused.