I pretend!

Invading every feeling
Leaving scars upon my heart
Like a shadow hanging over me
And tearing me apart

The nightmares as I'm dreaming
Killing me each time I wake
Shredding every wish I've had
My life now seems so fake

The tears behind my smile
And the truth is I pretend
It's pain that I've kept hidden
And the feeling that won't descend

I try to be the best i can be.
But it never seems enough
Its killing me inside
I never knew life could be so tough

My heart is just so empty
I can't help the way I feel.
Getting deeper by the minute
These feelings are so real.

On the outside i'm fine
But on the inside i am dead
So why can't i bring myslef
To put the bullet to my head ?