Memories

The memories of you Ben
i just cant forget
the things we said
the things we did
they'll stay with me forever.

we were best friends for such a short time
but it was long enough for me to feel loved
long enough for you to show me what life meant.
maybe thats whats it was?
you were sent down from heaven
to show me life.
to show me what love was.
to show me - how to be me.

when you smiled at me, it wasn't fake,
and when you held my hand, i felt safe.
i knew you cared, i could see it in your eyes.
the way you wrapped your arms around me
i would just melt inside.

when i was with you, i could be me.
you saw me at my best,
you saw me at my worst.
yet you'd always love me the same.

When i heard you'd left the course
part of me died inside.
i found you outside smoking.
standing there, in a world of your own.

your eyes met mine, with a look of deep sadness.
we never spoke, we just held each other,
we just cried.

you kissed my head and pulled me tighter.
don't worry libs, you'll be fine
with that, i knew that would be our last moment together.
you were just going to leave me,
frightened, lost and alone.

it was all or nothing for you.
you wanted to leave without seeing me,
without even saying goodbye.
I cant take the pain, you said
then dint create IT i replied.

but you left me, all alone
frightened, confused - lost.

yet i want to thank you,
for showing me what a true friend is.
for showing me that i can be loved and treated
in that special way.

you'll never know how much you have changed my life.
how much your memory makes me smile.
but thats all it is - a memory.