Twisted mind

You've seen me before, you've seen me again, now its changed and we'll never talk the same together again, you called me sweet, i smiled with glee. At a drop of a dime flipped my mind, i really wish i could turn back time and keep my sane mind. back and forth I've switched, again and again I've turned into him, i feel so sick.
Lucian is I and I am Lucian one in the same! i hate it, i want to rid of it. i don't want to be Lucian or me, but is that normal to say when desperate and in pain? i hope you see that I'm not just one but two, i am Lucian and Jose. i only wish to stay calm but when aggravated i become dangerous and rough, so run and play so long as you don't make Lucian surface at any point of the day. For I'll teach you a rhyme that Lucian sings when ready to cause much suffering! 1, 2, Lucian's coming for you... 3,4, you better lock all your doors...5,6, Lucian will leave you with a kiss...7,8, Lucian will make you shiver and quake...9,10, your life belongs to Lucian my friend!