Im so sorry

Shallow and empty inside
these painful feelings are hard to hide
feelings of guilt
feelings of regret
feeling anger and rage
these feeling i will never forget

the day you left
a part of me died
people say come on kell you tried
there was nothing you could do
i know thats not true

if i was there for you
if i helped you
if i loved you the way you loved me
if i could have just made you see
if only you didn't love me

sometimes i wake up crying at night
i scream out your names
i never understood why
i never understood how you could take you life

i understand how now
when you love someone that much
nothing else matters
and when you loose them theres nothing left
your life shatters

I'm so sorry for the pain i put you through
i loved you
just not the way you needed me to
rest in peace now your free