When the world wont let you in

I try to block the feelings out
that make my insides scream
They eat away at my future
and all a girl could dream

I try to release these feelings
but my lips wont let me speak
They only leave unspoken words
in the wetness on my cheek

They trace back up to my eyes
where i am so dead
Stripped me of my life
and crushed the future in my head

The one ill never live
Before i couldn't see
That ill never have that future
With all thats dead in me

Ill never have the things i once dreamed
when i was so young
My dreams are now the nightmares
that turned my feelings numb

The dreams i once had
all poured out when i bled
and left me with the memories
that are like poison in my head

Eating away at my potential
nd all the things that i held close
Robbing me of any chance of success
left with the memories that hurt the most

A breakdown that happens all the time
from the lack of love and help I'm needing
Rejection plays over in my head
until I'm left internally bleeding

Bleeding out my future
thats no longer worth portraying
Choking back my pride
as I'm slowly suffocating

Locked in a state of failure
suffocating in a room full of air
Clawing out my eyeballs
when the pains too much to bare

There are claw marks on my face
from where my nails sunk in
Because theres just no starting over
When the world wont let you in