I Don't Remember When

I Don't Remember When

I don't remember the last time
He told me "I love you"
Or held my hand
It would have gotten lost anyway
in the critism of the day

Its scary..
If he died today
I would more in likely remember
that my bottom is too fat
or that he doesn't like when I cook
this or that

I would more in likely remember the sadness
of every birthday he forgot
or the nasty way in which he fought
or the times he turned me away
when I just wanted to love and play

I never thought when I took the vow
that my life would be as it is now
I would give anything for it to be
as it was then..
If he would just hold my hand
and tell me
He loves me again