I hate it when you look at me.. but i love it even more.*

I hate it when u look at me, but i love it even more.
because just looking in your eyes makes me want you more & more.
i hate it when you touch me, but damn it feels so good.
because i just want you to hold me, like i know that you should.
you are my addiction.
and it's something i can't control.
your simply so seductive.
so lets get dirty and smoke a bowl.
i think my imagination has taken over me.
because i know that you and me... we could never be.
i ask my self why?
i thought that u cared.
but now i see u were just a lie.
i wonder if you have changed.
& if your different now.
but i couldn't ever imagine how.
your everything i wanted.
but you obviously never cared.
but the memories... they will always be shared.
just hearing your name makes my heart skip a beat.
the thought of there being a chance with us is something very bittersweet.