As the days go on and the nights
restless i can not seem to understand this one thing...
why me?
why the heck me?
why not you or her
why me
i try and try
but i can't see why i can't
be like you
you don't understand!
i can't do it! i just can't
i want to fit in
but you're holding me back
on reality on life!
i want to stop being like the devils child in your eyes but it comes out when i least expect it!
i try to be good
set an example for sister
but she hates me so whats the use of even trying i want to be like a normal child, but i can't
what do you want me to do....die?
cause i can arrange that! really its possible! i can do many things that you do not know trust me i can! you might not know this...........no magical powers and no satin belief i just have a power to do anything! yes maybe get caught but not cause i didn't plan well but because i can do it! i love to have that feeling of you hating me cause i know no matter how well i act, no matter how perfect i am your always NO matter what gonna hate me......and really thats ok with me! cause no matter what im always gonna hate you mom
