One of those days

I have felt this way before...
the way i feel today
the way my heart feels like it is broken in two
the way the lump in my throat
is to large to swallow
the way i have to tilt my head to the sky to prevent myself from crying
what is sad about today
is it me,is it what i have been through
is it the tilt of the earth
or the dimness of last nights moon
is it the song on the radio
or the half poured glass of lemonade
i don't want to be sad
i don't want to give in
so i will just smile and once again pretend...
I AM HAPPY I AM HAPPY I AM HAPPY
i will tell myself over and over again