Silent tears

When ever things are bad the body does what is need to try to mend its wounds. When this action takes place a lot of feelings go through ones head. At this time the minds takes over and has to aces the situation and create feeling. These emotions could range from hatred, sorrow, a sense of numbness, or a sense of worthlessness. In the present situation my body is going threw I don’t know how to feel, I feel that I am burden on any one who has had the misfortune of associating themselves with me. My emotions are more of the green eyed monster which some people call jealousy. The only reason this is in my head is because I screwed up thing by not have my affairs in line. I put to many things in front of the one thing that made me, me. Now when I hear the name of that one thing mentioned, I get angry with who ever is saying it , and myself for being so vein and not having my priorities in line. Some of my thoughts are not normal, This is why I feel like a outsider on my own life, because of my life style, I have screwed up my main support group away from my home. The one person that thought no wrong of me in till I instilled her with it, for this why my silent tears fade into a lost cause called life.