The way u are

Was it too much to ask you to love me.....

cause it seems when i needed you the most

you were gone,

its sad you know?

you left dad here by himself,

but most of all you left me,

your Little girl,

i thought you were suppose to love your kids unconditionally,

i guess i thought wrong,

you have disappointed me so much in the past

why should you have another chanced?

all you are gonna do is say that it is my fault,

i find it funny,

i was the biggest mistake you made,

i was the worst thing in your life,

i was the one u didn't want,

but the other two,

the ones with the fathers who are not there when you need them,

when my father is still here when you need his help,

and when i run to you for answers,

you are not there,

there are some many things that many people take advantage of,

i never had you to talk bout boys,

i never had you to help me with my homework,

i never had you to teach me how to be a good girl,

all i had was dad,

he was the only one to run to,

you know......

all the sports i played were for you,

just so i would have an excuse for you to come see me,

and half the time weren't even there for that,

it hurts you know??

i feel like i was just the Little girl you had with your ex husband,

the one that you couldn't change,

the one that you couldn't love,

so you had more kids,

maybe to have another chance to not make mistakes,

but guess what you did.......

and you think changing now is gonna change our relationship?

and you want me to changed too?

look back at what i just read....do u really think i need to change??

also what kind of mother makes her daughter feel bad about herself?

if i know right you should be there to say,

honey your not fat,

honey you are beautiful,

but no..........i don't ever hear any of that from you,

and when i do......u don't seem like your being truthful,

and u say i have problems???

ill admit i have problems.....but can you?

i cant blame what i do on you.......

but ill admit you have messed me up pretty bad....

and you know it....

but don't come around and tell me you love me and that your sorry....

you have nothing to be sorry for....

its just the way you are and you will always be that way.....

you will just hide it.......

i can say that is one thing you have showed me to do....

is hide,

and i do it all to well.......

its just the way i am.........