Hard decision.

What am I supposed to do
Concerning you
Since day one I found you attractive
And now I must be decisive
Cuz now could be the only
Opportunity
I'll ever get to be with you
It's just a shame I haven't met you
Later like in a few years or even seasons
Cuz let's face it, your age is the main reason
Why I'm thinking this through
If not I would have dated you
In a split second that's for sure
And I'm sure it would have been a real pleasure
Cuz you seem like a fine girl to me
But other things are troubling me
Are you mature enough to be with me
Can I be committed enough to be
In a sort of relationship
Whereas for the past month I just wanna be in a "testing the waters" trip
No commitment at all
Is what I wanted if I can recall
Correctly
All of this is confusing to me
I wish my heart or feelings would take over
Cuz my mind sure can't decide what I should do about her
Cuz it would be unfair
To have just an affair
I don't wanna hurt her feelings
If one day I call it off cause we're not connecting
Or cuz I don't wanna be exclusive
What is wrong with me why am I in this seductive
Rampage mode
Where I feel like I need to get my load
Of feeling-less hook-ups
Until I actually have the hiccups
Like a drunk
Feeling like I had too much of this funk
So what am I saying
I guess I'm questioning
Whether or not I'm the right guy for her right now
Cuz with this state of mind it ain't gonna be beneficial to her sorrow
What if in her weakened state she gets attached to me
How will she feel when she'll realize that to me
It was just casual
Will she think I'm an ass-hole
Should we just stay friends forever
When recently I just want us to be closer
I wanted to make a move and hold her
In Java cafe when she told me all this sad stuff about her
I guess I've come to a decision
Which is to let our emotions
Guide us in this dilemma
That has been troubling me and Saskia
I guess we'll just have to wait and see
How nice it can be
To be together you and I
Who knows it could be worth it, and time will fly by
Before either of us realize
That by then to our eyes
We wanna be together
Cuz we're comfortable with one another
I just wanna show you all you can be
Show you daily that you're so much more than what you believe yourself to be
Bring back to yourself acceptance
And a sense of confidence
Erase bit by bit all of their works
All that cause of bitter dork
I hope I can make you see
That you deserve better and more importantly
Honey listen to me
You deserve to be happy.

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