I dont understand

How can this world be hard to lose
When you get choices and can choose
How can this be
This world keeps fallin on me

I wanted you to go back home
You wouldn't leave me alone
Now I'm back here where I started
Oh how can this be
How can I be too blind to see
How can this keep happing to me

I dont understand, what did i do??
How can this be, what did i do to you??
This world is too complicated, to even ask why
But I beg of it to take me, and to let me die