Nothing matters

Im tired of being some one im not
i cant keep my mind straight
ive tried and it didnt work
i cant handle anything
why does life have to be so tough?
i do nothing right
i have nothing at all
except my friends and family
but why do they care?
im not worth it
im not worth anything
why cant people see that?
why cant people see the truth the pain the lies through my eyes?
i always wanted to be someone i wasnt
someone else
i dream about it
i close my eyes and imagine
i hate it
i hate everything
why cant i be the girl?
why do i have to be a girl?
stupid
shy
afraid
why won't you care about me the way that i am?
but thats right you just dont care
im not your problem
so laugh at me
cause me pain
nothing matters.