The one that got away

To have it all, and not be happy in the end,
Am I just spoiled, how can I ever mend?
Is this a fantasy, or is this real?
Am I making mistakes even though I do not steal?
Why such pain, not knowing what to do,
Why such tragedy, and feeling so blue.
I am breaking down piece by piece
She could have gave me one chance at least
Is there a meaning to all this, I do not have a clue.
I wish I was dreaming and this was not all true.

She will never understand the way I feel
Because I didn't know what to tell her to prove its real.
I never understood what i was doing wrong.
She never had trust in me all along.
She believed in rumors which were not true
Leaving me is what she decided to do

It was only my past they were speaking of
Only if I could have told her
She was the one I loved
How could I have learned?
If I never had the chance to make mistakes,
At least one or two that's all it takes.
No ones perfect, I tried my best.
But she was set on what she believed in, didn't care about the rest.

Would it be better if I was not born at all?
Then I wouldn't need anyone to help pick me
Up when I fall.
It's not easy to please someone blind.
Nothing was ever good enough for her, in her mind.
I guess I am left alone, I am my only friend.
This whole time I thought she loved me it was make pretend.
I wish I could have done something to make her stay
The only person I have ever loved
The one that got away