My Nightmare Called Love

I fell in love with a boy,
I loved his blue eyes,
and wished they could be mine,

He was popular,
and I was considered goth,

He loved to play football
I told my closest friends that I
liked him,

I guess someone overheard,
Word spread out across the school,

And then he knew,
He just laughed and said it wasn't true,
but it was,
I felt like dieing,
he thought they were lieing

My only savior was this razor,
my only friend,
I just guess I like seeing me bleed,
I slipped more into the darkness every second,
Or maybe I did it to make sure I was still alive,

Everytime he passed me in the hall,
He would stare at me like nothing,

I hate you,
I hate everything about you,
You made my life a living hell,

When I looked over at him and his friends,
He pointed at me and they all started to laugh,

It hurt,
It hurt more than my wrists did every night,

It still happens to this very day,
I try to forget him,

But his face is burned into my head,
Like these scars are burned into my wrists,

I hate him,
I hate everything about you,

I guess I never loved you,
Because I hate you so much now,
But what I hate the most,

Is the way I cant hate you.