Everything I worked my whole life trying to stay away from, I find out is right beside me, lingering. It has been there my whole life, and it's just now crashing down on me. I know it's there, but it's to late now, to late to change the past, and that's where everything is. Lingering in my mind thinking of drugs, alcohol, all there, the whole time, my whole life. It's never going to go away. Is life really worth living? Is it always going to be this way? Am I ever going to get away from everything I didn't want to become?
