No God For me

Since I was born into this world 15 years ago
My mommy loved me more than anyone I know
She always bragged to her friends about how proud of me she was
Never did she yell at me for being bad
Because I was the only little girl she had
Every Sunday up to age six, I would be good and go church and pray
Although as time went by mommy would ask me if I wanted to go to church and my reponse would always be "Not today"
The truth was I didn't truely believe in God and all that he stood for
I really didn't want to go to church anymore
At age 11 I finally decided God wasn't for me
I explained my feelings to my mother and obviously she didn't agree
She screamed and shouted at the top of her lungs, told me she wished I was dead
Thoughts of suicide began to fill my head
She used to tell me how much she loved me and now she doesn't even want me anymore..