The way I see it..

I cant eat
I cant sleep
I cant make up the promises I ment to keep
suddenly life is so cheap

I pray for death but Im given life
as if its a sign
could this be me over thinking
or losing my mind

I used to tell myself don't worry things will change
mommy will come back
and so will daddy
we'll be a family
and my hope and dreams well come alive
but that hope
that dream
has died
now that I realize its gone and never returning
that once high burning flame
has now fell to a burning shame

And once again holding a razor blade in my hand
letting out my sorrows and pain
does this make me less of a man

I wish I could go back
I wish life wasn't this way
I wish my soul wasn't black

so once again tears falling from my eyes
like rain drops from the sky
my wrist that bleed '
this is the way I fall asleep

so I pray for the end
I pray for the pain to go away
leaving behind my friends
never seeing the light of another day