Hopeless

Maybe I’m just hopeless
Or maybe it’s just my mind,
I don’t know if ill ever be the same
Cos someone came up from behind
To take my pride, shame and name

I think that I just need friends
But everyone says it ends

I think I need a loving friend
Just like that person over there

But they won’t look my way
For they only see the outside
And I have an ugly place
That covers me with this
Ruining face

On the inside is what really counts
But maybe that’s just me,
But last time I looked I’m lying on the ground
With the pencil in the air
Writing in my bleeding hand
Am I hopeless now?

Now I am scarred for life
And in whatever I do
I think it’s just not for me
Maybe not for you.

My life is ruined now
And what is left
Are the scars that have bereft
All that is the same is
My feelings that are no more

Now I sit here writing this
Hopeless and confused
Maybe my life would change
If maybe I wasn’t so bruised

My life has changed and I have to accept
That I will never be the same
For what I have done
Came with blame

But I got it wrong.
For friends are there to change.

As I jump off the bridge
I stare down below
And who is that looking up at me?
I really don’t know.

As I’m falling down I see a white light
There I go no turning back
I close my eyes and falling with a soft whack
I look up and two kind eyes look at me
And I find that I’m surrounded by the people I thought
Weren’t my friends
But I just didn’t look hard enough
For all of it ends.

I found that day to look on the inside of the inside
Don’t think you have no friends until you know for sure
That you are friendless to your
Core.

I now no that I have friends and since that day
My scar has gone and now says
Hopeless I am not.

I love my friends
And my life and next time you have
Hopeless written on your arm look for friend who
Will not jump off with you
But be at the bottom of the bridge to catch you.