Had You Only Looked In My Eyes

Today was just like any other
Full of pain and tears
And I really don't understand why
But it's been like this for years

Everyday gets a little harder
And the pain never seems to go away
I've tried to release it many times
But I guess it's here to stay

Why is this happening to me?
When I've tried so hard to do right
I guess I should have tried harder
Instead of giving up the fight

But I don't see the point in trying so hard
When all I think of is dying
Cutting myself over and over
And to my family, I keep lying

The friends I had once before
Are no longer there for me
I guess they've had enough of this
But the point, they'll never see

I wish I could have told them
The reason I feel empty inside
But the truth is, I don't know myself
Over the years my soul just died

I used to have so much in life
But over the years it seemed to fade
And now as I look at my scars
I remember why each one was made

The few on my arms
There's a lot I could say about those
But it was mainly desperation of a Broken heart
A feeling I never chose

Then there's the few on my legs
Man that was a bad night
Alone in the house, nothing to live for
I pick up my blade with no hope in sight

There are a few others I can't name
Those I just try to hide
Because nobody needs to know
That each one is for tears I've cried

Tears of pain and of hurt
Also of deception and lies
Maybe you would have seen it all
Had you only looked deep in my eyes