I wanna..

I wanna die,
i aint gonna lie.
but my girl make me happy,
it's just that life's always crappy.
Being beaten up,
in my heart the size is like a cup.
being said that it's my fault,
i can make my life come to a halt.
when i die,
will you cry?
or will you just laugh and cheer,
as long i know i was here.
i just couldnt take it anymore,
whoever read this dont be bored.
this is my life story,
it must sound boring.
as well when i end it,
some people will be ripped.
i just wanna do what's the best for me,
instead of being crushed into a pea..

How come many people wants to live? That's the mystery of life..