Monochrome

Emotions are not recognized
Days drift by without notice.
Sometimes I want to give up
Take a roll with the dice

And not care what it lands on
I donâ??t care what happens now
Itâ??s a reality ive feared
To sink again this low

To have constant mood
Not changing for better or worse
Just a mood that allows days to roll by
Without determining their course

I am not driving the force
Behind my days spent as they are
I just donâ??t care about it though
I donâ??t desire to be loved or cared for

Maybe thatâ??s the problem there
Maybe ive lost the will to fight
The focus to live with shine
The determination to get to the light

Because right now at present
That light is so bleak
Its not even worth fighting for
Im just too weak

Too stupid and broken to live
With beauty or any purpose
Other than to destroy the soul
To give in to you as a whole

I cant fight anymore
Its too strong
Ive given up on this
Ill just float along

Im too weak and its overpowering
And I donâ??t have reason
I donâ??t have the willpower or strength
To carry through the seasons

My weakness is apparent
In many colourless nights
Lost sight of everything
Except the black light.