Because i care

Why do i even bother? she said
there\'s no point
i don\'t deserve him
or anyone

you should bother. i said
theres too many points to count.
you deserve him
and you deserve me
its because i care that I\'m doing this
i wouldn\'t if i didn\'t
you have a great life
you have so many great things going for you
a scholarship
a family
a home
a huge gang of mates
a job

no i don\'t. she said
i hate school
i hate my family
i hate my home
my job is okay i guess, well i get paid, don\'t i?

and your friends?

well they put me here
where i am now
sad
depressed
lonely

jess, i am your friend

yes
but everyone else hates me
they say it to my face
you\'re the only one I\'ve got

but Karla?

she likes me
but i hate her
she wants a friend
but she doesn\'t want the friend in me
she hates you, you know

yes, i know

it\'s because she is jealous of you
i spend my time with you
and not her
she is clingy
like a baby and its dummy
and i am the dummy

jess...

no
i hate this
i hate everything
and Chris
i just broke up with him
and now he hates me too

nobody hates you

they do

my brother
and another
and mother
and father
they all hate me
I\'m always grounded
always busted
always in trouble
i don\'t even do anything
nothing
ever

jess
it sounds to me like you have a lot of small and minor problems
i am willing to talk
maybe
if you want to
it doesn\'t matter if you don;t
but i want to
so lets get out the vodka and red bull and talk
because i do care
and i love you.

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OK this isn\'t really a poem or anything
its just a weird conversation i had with my friend and stuff
so anyway
I\'m trying to help her
and I\'ll write another one that will be called Jessica and you can read it and get the whole picture.
thanks