But I Was Suppose To Be Something

Looking back, never quite measured up
Always lost in my sister's shadow
She was my hero
The one I wanted to perform like
The one I wanted to dress, look, and be just like
The one with the friends I wanted to be friends with too
The one with the closest bond to mama
Never quite measured up
So what was I supposed to be?

The middle child...
That means that I have a younger sibling, my baby brother
Yeah, the one most valued by father and mother
The one who seems can do no wrong
The one who I fought with for too long
But I grew up to realize how important our relationship is
But you turned your back away
When I told you about a new love
So what kind of sister was I supposed to be?

Looking back, school was where I could shine
Always top of my class
Teachers informed my parents of an incredible mind
I remember when my parents could brag about me
Smile at just the thought of me
Felt this tight sense of love around me
And that's who I was supposed to be.

Go back six years, discover that something went wrong
Let puppy love and rebellion intercept the path to success
Verbal abuse by peers affected my self-esteem
Began making excuses for not doing even the simplest homework
Suicidal tendencies also made things worst
That's not what I was supposed to be.

Looking back, I had a greater drive
I was suppose to become somebody
A supermodel, a dentist, a surgeon, psychologist
But, then you realize you're not tall enough
Then you think you're not smart enough
And you figure you may not have a strong enough stomach
And of course, how can you help others when you can't even help yourself?
I was supposed to be one of those things
I was supposed to be something.

Can't make excuses anymore
It's time to grow up
Realize I can achieve something
That'll make them smile again at just the thought of me
And they won't have to brag about me
Just to know I wasn't a disappointment in the end
And that they can truly be proud of me
Because someday, I'm going to be that something.