I don't want them to worry
and because they do i feel more guilty
i feel like more of a burden
i don't want to make more friends
because i don't want any more people to care
if I'm there because i don't want to be there
I'm here and i don't care
i wish i would be spared
but i never will be but i guess thats fair
I'm never been that lucky
I've never had good things happen to me
Ive seen all my friends be happy and glad
and it make me wonder why haven't i ever been like that
i miss my real smile
that i knew i once had
but now when i smile its as fake as i can
no one know why I'm sad
because i cant explain it
i just feel so much pain
and I'm used to it now so i really don't complain
Ive accepted the fact that I'm not meant to be happy
I'm not suppose to be here laughing
soon all i will b avail to do is frown
and its already to late to turn my life around
i feel like a clown
fake laughter and smiles left and right
I'm tired of trying to win a unbeatable fight
but i still try now even if i makes me cry
because i know i still have people by my side
even when i try to hide
