Why me??

Today i saw your face and heard your laugh
it made me sick..it made me gag
but at the same time in the same moment i cried inside
i wanted to run up to you
to apologize for you
to say that it was all my fault even though it was all yours
but you have her and im alone
and you don't care anymore
you know im wrong and that you are happy
but how can you be happy
we were best friends we were lovers
you held me and i held you
you saw me cry and i saw you smile
it wasn't my fault and it wont ever be
but you had to be you
you had to be you
I HATE YOU NOW
I LOVE YOU NOW
i love your laugh and your smile
i love your jokes and your hair
but you hate me and nothing i can say will change that.
i can't turn back time and have you love me
i didn't do anything
I DON'T UNDERSTAND
why me......WHY ME???