Mistakes

Why am i here to suffer this pain?
why should i care what have i to gain?
Why should i listen so you can tell me more lies? Why couldn't you understand me and hear my cries?
Why are you wondering why I'm not here? don't you understand i thought i was clear?
Why didn't you listen? Why didn't you notice the way my wrists glisten?
Why did you always moan? couldn't you here me groan?
Why didn't you hide the knife? why couldn't you see my strife?
Why do you blame me? why couldn't you see?
Why did i leave? i didn't mean to deceive?
Why couldn't you see what it was doing to me? why can't you let me be?
Why are you sad i thought you didn't care? when i was alive you were never there?
Why didn't i realize i was so mad? i didn't mean to make you so sad?
Why did i do it?why didn't i see?why did i do it?

I made a mistake,
But i can't put it right,
What was i thinking,
Why did i kill the light.

©2006 Natalie Hawke