Venomous

The issue is my selfish ways and I
I'm so tired of this blackish life
This hellish fight
The venom in my lies are as deadly as snakebite
You have such beautiful wisdom
I hope to have a glimpse of that someday
But it's hard when you're the Devil's prey
I finally give up and kiss my happy life away
My life flies far, far away
I crawl back into my hole where I stay
There's barley enough room to breathe
If you traced out my life you would find a crushed heart
With no hope of a new start
Yes, yes there is hope!
Suddenly the rope slips from my hand
And I walk away from where I was standing
And begin praying
"Lord, oh holy Lord, take the pain away."
Then at that moment the hurt began to fade
"God, I'm sorry I made a fool of myself."
Then the feeling of being misplaced is replaced with the feeling of acceptance
"Lord, I'm sorry I disgraced you."
Then I feel as if I'm brand new