I'll Do It

I'm feeling pretty worthless right now
and I can't believe this I allowed
he killed himself, and it's my fault
my life has just ground to a halt

I tried to help, but I messed up
Mike's life was stressed to the top
I still can't believe what he did
I both knew and loved this kid

He came to school, and blew his brains out
did it with a nine to his head, I couldn't shout
couldn't stop him before he did the irreversible
he's dead now, my life is so cursable

I failed in that one and only simple task
I'm not so far off from following in his tracks
Tonight I might kill myself, drink until I die
just please don't fear for me or my suicide

'Cause if I do it you ain't stopping me
this world of mine you can't begin to see
it's a torment and torture filled place
and I'm seeking death's ever-loving embrace

I'm a failure, and I have not one single use
I might just end it with the hangman's noose
or slit my wrists until I bleed myself dry
Pop percocets and drink until I die inside

My minds drawing a blank as to a reason why
a reason why I should re-consider my suicide
should I stop myself, should I try to live
what's the point, if just once help I did not give

Give me a reason why I should stay on earth
prove to my that a waste wasn't my birth
I feel like I've lost it all, I have no reason to be
I'll do it, I've got the courage, you all wait and see