Outside/inside 14/06/06

Blue skies outside but inside it's so black,
outside so warm while insides melting away,
outsides so peaceful & calm while inside's under attack,
outside so silent but inside there's so much left to say,

outsides the sun but inside so much rain,
outside I am trying to be so together while inside I'm broken,
outside I am vunirble because insides so much pain,
outside I am looking to the future but inside the pasts awoken,

outside I just know that I have so much to give to someone,
so many qualities if only I could just let go
of demons from the past but insides wondering can it be done,
outsides still up and insides still so low,

it's getting like a war of who will win,
outside & inside are tearing me apart,
it kind of feels like to fall in love is a sin,
already broken & bruised I'm just protecting my heart,

I will know when it is right to let myself go,
to let it happen like it's meant to be,
when he comes along we will just grow,
and I will come back together and just be me.