I dont want to , so why do i still love you

***THIS ISNT FINISHED BUT PLEASE COMMENT***

Every night I sleep ,every time I dream every day I wake
youre the one whos in my head I feel I cant escape,
Ive blamed you for months but really what did you do
Its me I should blame for letting myself fall in love with you
I guess I just want to say sorry for acting the way I did
Im sorry for caring ,sorry for loving, sorry youre who I miss
I wish with the memories i have of you I could hold no regrets
But the hurt you caused me is something I could never forget
And I was so foolish to think you ever could have cared
To think how I felt was a feeling we could have mutually shared
I’ve come to realise that , the did we kissed in the rain is never coming back
God knows I never had a chance cause love is something you highly lack