Nothing Stops

Camo shorts and sun burn...blisters in the sun

Summer time and memories of all the things I\'ve done..

Ive been here and Ive done that...but since that day I\'ve lived in black.

Clouds covered my bright orange exterior gloss coat...

You\'d swear I\'ve always been grey....

But only since I heard that day...since then Ive been this way

Its not going to be pretty son,Is what he said to me..

Sitting on a made up bed in room 11 63..

Theres not much I can do for you, except warn you of the pain...

Every ounce of courage is needed in this game...

The shock was over whelming as my pulse began to race....

All the colour ran from me....drained but not replaced..

All the years of wickedness are coming to an end.....

All my years of mates...all my years of friends..

They disappear before my eyes

As I lay still on my bed....

Fu*@ed up thoughts of suicide go rushing through my head...

I cant escape no matter where I go to hide....

I feel like I\'m on the devils roller coaster, with razors on the the sides...

I scream, I cry, I force myself to smile...for a moment I forget it all....but only for a while..

In a miss guided way you came to me...

But what you needed was a guide....

I forgot the battles I was wagering with the beast that lurks inside..

The guide you needed wasn\'t me...

But it was not a waste of time....

I\'ve learned a useful lesson....one I\'ll not confide

One that involves trust and stuff...and lots of broken pride..

I\'ve told you things I have never told....

That in its self is a relief...

But is doesn\'t stop me grieving inside.....

Nothing stops the grief...