Where is the light

Seeing through blurred out memories, tears rolling down my face.
Taste of salt, where can i hide my heart?
Seeing everybody else, feeling like the wall behind me.
Sound of laughter, why am i not laughing too?
Looking at the bottle, memories disappearing.
Smells like beer, is it here i can hide my heart?
Light disappearing, if it was there before.
Feeling drowsy, am i going away for good?

Seeing blinding light, feeling warm.
The taste has gone away, is this heaven?
Seeing a blinding lamp, a doctor bending down.
sound of a voice, why am i still not speaking?
Seeing my hand, there is a tube sticking out.
Smells like hospital, Am i ashamed now?
turning my head, here comes the tears.
I'll continue tomorrow, perhaps then i will die?