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I am tired Lord
Body and soul
I am tired and weary
Longing to come closer
Longing to be only Yours
Lord, I am far down
Lord I am suffering
I pray that You listen to my calls
That I may not stray
I am in pain Lord
Spiritual not physical
My soul, it's sore
And I feel that I am wilting
I am falling
And I need You to catch me
Pull me up by the hand
And carry me through the storms
I feel I am wilting Lord
And I cry, because
All I want is to be so close
I fear I may not reach that goal
Lord I thank You
For I feel Your presence
I see Your light from this black hole I'm in
And I reach for You
But sin and shame is pulling onto my ancle
Free me Lord
I beg You free me
Take my hand and lead me
through this pain
Lord I love You,
Please know I love You
Even when I'm facing destruction
When I break down and crumble
Your love searching for me
Glues me back together
Yet I thank You Lord
For I know that You haven't given up on me
Even when I feel, I have.
Lord hear this voice calling out of the dark
This voice searching for Your heart
As I kneel down before You
All my pain confessed
My tears, they're shouting out for You
I am desperate for You
Confused and lost in this puzzle
Lord through this pain and these tears that have dried
I realize how black I am
Filled with sin
I am humbled Lord
Yet not enough
because I still yearn for more
wishing it to be how it used to
I'm giving You the key to these locks that hold these chains on me
I know that You can free me
But can I let myself be freed
That is why I cry
And I will try, Lord
Lord please just change me
And mold me into Your shape
I pray that You fill me with Your mighty glory
As I will not let myself go
Even though I won't let myself be completely changed
Lord the power is with You
Since I am weak and I am standing on my own
instead of giving You control
Lord, I plead, Please take control