The life i kno

I feel pathetic,not weak but numb,
Oh if only sum1 gave me a gun,
A bullet to my brain,
They think I'm insane.

They all think i lie,
About wanting to die,
But for once i speak the truth,
It cant be something to do with youth.

Why cant i tell nobody,
Ive locked up totally,
I hide the tears with closed eyes,
And blurt out a string of lies.

The way i lie,
Makes me die inside,
But it keeps every1 out,
So i don't have to scream and shout

The way i feel,
No 1 knows,
They'll never know,
Whats written on my soul.

Please tell me what you thinks thanks!. A xXx