Emotionless

*in loving memory of my grandpa*

your there when i sleep
but when i wake im alone
i go through the day wondering
why you cant you be here with me
i wake up
in the middle of the night
sweating because i dream of that
day when i lost you
that dreadful phone call
i got that day and now i cant stop
replaying it in my head
it makes me sad but i cant cry
im the strong one and i cant cry
emotionless face but so broken inside
just wanting it to come out
it hurts
i cant take it anymore
no one to talk to
no one to cry to
just dreams of that horrible day
when they told me you had died
i wish i never answered
i wish i didnt care
but i did and i do
and the dreams are slowly killing me
all i can hope is that
they do it quick
i dont want this pain anymore.....
all i can say now is i love you
and goodbye