The way you spoke to me

The way you spoke to me that night
the way you made me feel
a burden that was placed on me
your guilt that i am supposed to feel?

there are things that i dont understand things that i fear, you are the one who said l love you first, that word i know nothing of

you pushed me into this deep darlk oblivion of lies and deception, yet your the only one who waits for me with open arms.

i am so confused and dont know what to do, alls i know is i cant run to you.