A day in the life of a suicidal child

I lie here, trying to ignore the noises i hear, its not easy being me. Tightening the grasp
of my pillow around my ears, the noises tormenting me. I try to stay strong, ignore them i
repeat to myself, but they wont stop, they never will, i give in. I pick up the knife and slash
my skin. The voices cease, they have won now.

Blood on my sheets, another stain on my heart, another hole in my soul. Soon there will be
nothing to live for. I sleep now, only to awake and face it over and over again. It will
never end, ever. This is the scenario i onced longed to create. How stupid of me, now there
is now way out, i\'ll never win. It may be my imagination this paper, this pen, this hand.
Where is my Guardian angel who promised to stay near? No one to save me now nothing is clear

Drifting away, into the adventures of my mind, dozing, in and and out of this fantasy i want
to become real, hoping one day life will be as easy as one big dream. Sinking, into the darkness
i was once afraid of. Thoughtless, Just hoping, hope is all i have now in this unrecognized
wourld i lie in, Now no way out. Trapped with no exits, my own little mission to find happiness,
Struggling, on my own abandoned battle field, still fighting to win. ill never give in, Never.

Fighting my battle until its won, but i stop. Who was it that started this battle? Me.
Fighting with the imagination of my soul, I am on the neverending quest to forfill my
dream. The stupid thoughts in my head overcome me, they take over. Im not the person
i used to be now.

Laughing, Laughing for there are too many reasons to cry. Though i still thing my angel
will come and take my troubles away, staring into the deep blue sky, so beautiful, my
heart pounds. I am out of ideas. no hopes. no dreams. Just me, me, myself and i. So i stare
into the deep blue sky. I close my eyes thinking, how can something be so unexplained but
have so much potential. Sinking, into my own world, where i will remain. Until my saviour
wakes me, to guide my way.