My daddy punchin the walls
I sitting in the corner
watchin it all
My daddy wraps his fingers around my brother neck
My momma pushes daddy
He pushes back too
My Brother face turns blue
I tried to shout
But no noise came out
I look at daddy eyes
vacant as it can be
I continued to cry
Momma begs daddy to let go
My daddy said no
but he does so
My brother ran out the door
I looked out the window
once more
My brother turned
managed to crack a smile
as he waved a little goodbye
I wiped my tears
My life beginning to fade
and smear
away
daddy took momma to another room
It was really quiet til I heard a
boom
I went in mamas room
Found my ma lyin on the bed
bloods everywhere
a bullet in her head
I dipped my finger in her blood
drew a heart on her arm to let her know we will always be best buds
I covered her face with a blanket
I tried not cry
but I couldnt fake it
I saw my daddy standing by the door
The pain, I didnt want to endure
Momma didnt have to suffer no more
I prayed to the lord
"Please, bring my family
back together
bring them back for the better"
I shut the door behind me
I couldn't believe
What I was seeing
My daddys on the chair with a rope around his neck
"Dont die daddy, Please"
"Sorry, princess" he says
as he kicks the chair and swings
I just couldn't believe
Why is this happening to me
In one day
Why does it have to be this way
I begin to fade from the picture
I have no future
"Lord!
you have failed me
failed my brother
failed my family
from each other
I told you to bring them back
not here to die
Now here I lie
beginning to fade away
from faith
from hope
My daddy did suicide
My brother ran away
daddy made mommy die
Now heres left of me... to fade
"Im a nobody Lord
just another chaos
another girl
whos lost........"
