My Life

Its not always easy waking up, every morning having to put on a fake smile and act as if everything is ok. None one ever hearing your far cry just to talk. They just dont listen or cant they hear the bell ringing at the end of the match.

Everyone always making jokes over the one thing deep inside you are torn up for, makes you wonder sometimes why try but you cant help it. You want to forget, you try to forget but a reason you do not understand yet will not let you. You try to confront your misery by asking the question. Saying to yourself you rather get a no than to never ask at all. But you know damn sure that isnt true.

Finally I realize it probably isnt worth the effort, breaking myself to try to get the slightest piece of hope. Because I now in the end that the hope I want is like a light bulb flickering, it is only a matter of time until it burns out. To realize this brings new meaning, for me at least, to life.