Mistakes number one through five

Nothing is ever totally free
nothing ever comes without cost
even if no money is spent
there is always something lost

when you pretend not to see
when you act like it isn\'t real
to you I just don\'t exist
it\'s not hate, you just don\'t feel

and the cost isn\'t measured
in anything you call real
its measured in something
called being able to feel

can you feel their eyes
passing right through you
i know that i can everytime
someone thinks im new

when really i have been
here all along,
you just plugged your ears
chose not to hear my song

and when i needed you
to look at me
you, like everyone
failed to see

and in your failing
you sealed the fates of many
it wouldn\'t have cost
you even a single penny

but you chose to not look
you chose to not see
and you chose to stay you
and forced me to be me

and i wanted to be
more like you were
and you didnt see me
all you saw was her

and that was
mistake number o.n.e.
and its your fault
i grabbed the g.u.n.

and with your last chance
you made mistake number t.w.o.
of everyone there
all i saw was y.o.u.

and then i see your eyes
and you finally see m.e.
the gun to my temple
and mistake number t.h.r.e.e.

there was a mistake
number f.o.u.r.
because just as i walked
through that d.o.o.r.

you looked past me
mistake number f.i.v.e.
and with that glance
i could still be a.l.i.v.e.

you learned nothing\'s ever really free
nothing ever really comes without cost
even if not a penny is spent
there is always something valueable lost