Memories still hurting

I knocked the doors of truth searching for my lost soul
all the beautiful dreams i,v made has blown with the wind
all the nights i stayed awake haven't changed a thing
pain has grown and joy has gone and never they will return
today am alone with my shadow feeling just like a stone
time is all what i have and its too empty killing me slow
dark vision burning the papers of my forgotten me
am picturing my death like yellow leaf falling in the sea
still running from my self i don't know where should i be
still crying but tears won't dry
incomplete story stuck between death and being alive
tell me what the time tell me where i am
not today nor tomorrow won't heal my deep sorrow
i look in the mirror all what i see is just a cold flesh
i wonder if am wondering i guess am wrong
i never wanted you to take me high i just didn't wanted to hear you cry
all my mistakes all my faults i never meant to hurt you
now am paying my tears a price are you going to forgive me
i was dumb and i was fool but all what i wanted is to hear the truth
lonely i felt my self when i used to be with you
but now without you i feel the emptiness trying to stab my back
even my unknown friend my shadow at night he leaves me alone
have you ever felt my pain i think your not going to say the truth
am looking around i can't see you am fool i guess your gone
am still standing am waiting you to return
its raining its cold do you think am lost
don't you want to come to take me back home
your lying but am hopelessly trying to believe you
its me do you remember me am the one you never knew
i saw you i laid its not true
please don't believe me cuz you shouldn't knew
i don't blame you but i just hate my self for loving you
am looking back i have changed am not me
you still telling me lies am not sure if its true am in my worst nightmare
my pain is all about you but i don't want you to be the one who's going to wake me
the leafs of hope still falling down and when the autumn come i wont be alive
can you see the sunset at the seaside its just dies beyond the warm sea
these wounds won't stay bleeding eternally they are just going to stop someday and they will take my life away
no more this heart can take the pain its too fragile today
why you have gave me all these promises why you laid
am tired of being chained by the pain of loneliness
why when i loved you, you just stole it from me
in my dreams i still see you
all the same words just in a different way
all the lies but much painful today
why you wanted to change me
i can't began the game over again
i can't keep driving this mind wrong
no more its fun you must stop its the end
dizzy my head am falling in the endless vale
cold dark am freezing can you hear me
am not speaking your moving inside of me
have we met here before
stare in the mirror your looking straight in my eyes
i don't believe are we really apart
your cruel words still swimming in my mind
am not listening to you therez something wrong
its hurt i shouldn't be here
i forgot my self in the past
memories hunting me i better run away
ohh how funny you call my name
no more you understand me and i wont try to explain
your lies have made this quiz and your the one to blame
i was like a gull flying above you and now am down
hey my sweet angel whatever you done to me i won't stop loving you
we can't hide our secrets anymore
cuz today i,ll fly away so far
destiny of our souls written to be apart
i,v tried so hard but its may not right
maybe i should rest
and maybe i should prepare my self to say goodbye
cuz i still mixing between the facts
you was making your man
and i was sticking on past
you wanted to hold new happiness sign
but i couldn't forget the anguish of my memories
so i broke all what you made down
you was the origin of the devotion
but unfortunately i couldn't understand
i have spend lots of nights thinking
but nothing worked out
i have wasted my tears without even tiny avail
wish i could kill the reasons of my misery
wish i could find my lost hope again
i,ll run after you till the end
maybe i,ll catch
and maybe i,ll fall
but please don't call me loser anymore
give me chance let me clear the lines
let me kill your fears wait till i stand
let me see you smile
let me hear you laugh
let me keep a little of past in my mind
don't be sad i don't want to see you cry
don't be grieve i,ll take you high
i,ll take a seat for a both of us to the beatitude land
i don't have enough words to tell you how astray i feel
without i feel so lost and unreal
all the roads i have crossed
i haven't find any reason to be boast
i still following my shadow
wish i know when he,s going to stop
the time is late i better be in bed
but i can't sleep when your not right by my side
without my dose of your touches i can't close my eyes
this time its really late so i have to say goodbye