Such a silly thing to think

As i sit and think,

tiering to believe that these are just thoughts

none of them are real,

that I really do not feel,

that I do not love u or even want to touch you,

I do not know you but want to know you,

to tell you about my live and have a really good time,

I want to lay on the grass hold your hand and laugh,

I want cry for once and only u to see,

I want you to love me,

I want to not hurt any more and to never have this pain,

cause it makes me this bad person i am today,

i want to believe i can love and there is a thing,

for once i want to be the one kissing,

but i do not think I meant to be the one kissing,

I am suppose to be alone,

to never be the one kissing,

to never love or believe in such a silly thing,

to always be hurt and act like it is all OK,

cause I am the one to just be sad and lonely all my days.