I Let You, Let Me Go

Where have you gone, what have i done. why was i so stupid, why was i such a fool.

you found me there one night.. i pondered the question is this person for me. i followed through with what my heart was saying and not my head.

we spoke a while and then we met, how could i forget. it was cold and i was standing waiting while you were an hour late.

we had coffee and chatted for a while.. that day is so fresh in my mind. your beautiful texts you send me.

i moved away to live with you to soon and i was happy at 1st. then i missed my old life, how can i say to you how unhappy i was with my new life.

i didn't know anyone, i made no friends and for me this cuts deep. all i had was you, which i clung to very close. i never wanted to leave your side.

for all the love i had for you, i never showed it. i tried so hard to fit into my new life that you came 2nd.

i forgot about how you were feeling, because i was so wrapped up in me.
then all the problems came. we used to fight and i was the 1 who started them.

i was frustrated inside and i didn't know how to tell you. how could i hurt such a wonderful person has you. the fact reminds i did more than once.

i not only hurt you, i hurt everyone around you. how can i say sorry and mean my every word. for sorry i have said so many times before.

it wasn't till you left me, that i now know just how you mean to me.
i have to wake with this hurt everyday and sleep with it every night.

i can't forgive myself for what i have put you through. i would just love to awake with you again and your face to be the 1st i see.

i want to kiss you good night and feel the warmth of you beside me. i lay there in my cold bed with just me.

i miss you everyday and it hurts so much. i only have to think of you smile and it brings tears to my eyes.

i want you back in my life, i want you there by my side. for this i know i can't have, i left it to long to say how i truly feel.

your were not only my lover, but my soul mate and i hurt you with my wicked ways. my such bitter words.

you have molded your self to my heart and i can't undo that. you will always remain there until i die. i loved you and yet i let you let me go.