Like Father Like Daughter

I swore that I'd never be like him and that I'd never treat people the way he treated many
I swore that I would never cause people pain for my selfish needs and never make my best friends my new enemies.
I swore that I’d never fight to get my way even when I already know it’s wrong
And that no matter how he hurts me, I’ll always appear strong!
I swore that when someone does something incredible, I’d be sure to let them know how proud I was
I would hug them and try to find a way to be supportive like my father never was
And unlike him I would never let a good thing pass me by
I would tell all the people I care about, that I love them and would be nothing without them by my side.
I swore that whenever I made a promise I’d make sure it never breaks
No matter how hard it gets in the end, I would find a way instead of running away.
For years we’ve argued; blinded by our actions
But I grew too scared to step out of my inhibition.
But as I argued with him tonight I realized deep down in my gut
That everything we argued about made no sense and it drove us nuts!
My mom said that she saw a younger, female version of my dad in me
As scary as it sounds, I hate to admit that just like him I turned out to be.
It’s scary to know that it’s not a game of playing pretend
I was raised by my only hate and turned out just like him in the end!
But I won’t let the fear of knowing that I’d turn out like him later in life stop me from changing what he has created within me.
I still have time to change and create something new! I will work hard to be a different person; just wait and see!
No matter how rocky the road or how steep the slope
I will not end up in the same crossroads like before!
I have decided that I no longer want to be
Like father like daughter anymore!